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Life update

In case you were wondering why I haven’t uploaded anything this week, here’s why.

My grand-father passed away this week. I only have my mother’s side (my parents are divorced and my dad and I don’t talk) so we’re quite close. When I was little and lived at the coast, my family all lived in streets parallel to each other. I learned to ride my bike in my grand-parents’ back garden. My grand-mother died 15 years ago, so I only had my grand-dad left.

My grand-father’s health had been getting worse for a while now and a couple of months ago, he was diagnosed with cancer. He had chemo and radiation and the doctors thought he could make a full recovery, but his body was too weak and eventually, this week, his heart just stopped.

I have lost family before and the heardest part, I find, is the moment you realise that they are really gone forever. That you will never see them again, never talk to them again. They have ceased to exist. They are no longer there.

I have so many great memories that I’ll cherish and I’m thankful that he got to meet my children, that he was at my wedding. And in the end, I’m glad that he didn’t have to wait for death and suffer. I’ll miss him. I am missing him. But that’s life I guess.

Anyway, this is why I haven’t posted this week. I couldn’t focus my thoughts enough to write reviews for the books I’ve read. I’ll see when I can manage to find the writing mood again.

Love

And tell your loved ones how much they mean to you.

Ellen

5 thoughts on “Life update”

  1. My grandmother passed away last week after a battle with cancer. I am glad her suffering is over cause she was in excruciating pain. It is still odd to think she is gone. My grandpop was with her for 36 years and he is a bit lost as you can imagine. I am sorry to hear about your loss as well. I know words aren’t much especially coming from a random blogger but your post made my heart sad in a poignant way.
    x The Captain

    1. Thank you for sharing. I’m sorry for you and your grandfather. It’s difficult being the one who stays behind, but like you said, if she was in so much pain…
      My grandma died when I was 16. She also had cancer and there was nothing the doctors could do for her, so she was just waiting for it to be over. The last month, she asked us (her grandchildren) not to go to the hospital anymore because she didn’t want us to remember her that way. She was a strong woman and I have tons of respect for her.

      So even if we don’t know each other, we do share the same feelings.
      I’m sorry for your loss.
      And thank you.

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