I love E.E. Cummings. I love his style, the way he plays with words and punctuation. Of course everyone knows [i carry your heart with me(i carry it in] (link if you don’t know it) but he’s written so many other great poems (plays and essays and books too in case you were wondering). Have you ever heard this one? A bit more ‘adult’ in subject, “May I Feel” read by Tom Hiddleston.
But back to “You are tired” and why I chose it. The last couple of weeks have been a bit much for me. I get these moments where I’m completely overwhelmed. I get irritated because I’m just so tired. Everything is too loud, too bright, too much of everything. I just want to crawl in bed and stay there for a week.
I know I’m not alone, plenty of people are trying to function just enough to get through the day.
As I’m writing this, I’m sitting at our kitchen table. My daughter is buried under a pile of blankets in the living room, watching some tv. My son is taking a nap and my husband is still asleep because he had a long night working at a concert.
Being a mom, I could be folding clothes, doing the dishes, vacuuming, cleaning,… but I decided to sit down and write this post. I sometimes forget to do things for myself. I don’t give myself time to recharge. That’s what I’m doing now. I’m drinking a cup of tea and taking some time to write down my thoughts before I start making lunch.
I’ve been so tired the last couple of weeks and I hate feeling like that because I’m letting myself down and I’m letting my family down. Self-care is not selfish. It’s necessary. And sometimes I just need to remember that.