I wanted to keep a record of my year so we’re making this work! Let me tell you what I did in January.
It turned out to be an eventful month with a lot of changes and a couple of rediscoveries.
I left my job and started a new one
Maybe you remember me talking about how my last job was draining my creativity. In the last week of 2017, I went to talk to my boss and told him I wanted to quit. I did however take the high road and offered to stay for another two weeks to help them through the most hectic time of the year but made it very clear that I wanted to leave immediately after.
I took a week off in between my ex-job and my current one. I’ve been a Marketing Manager for two weeks now and it’s been a lot of fun. Yes, I actually like my job now. I get to create all kinds of content and it’s very challenging. It’s great!
I went to London
So, I left my job on Friday and jumped on a train to London the next morning. My friend and I went for three days and it was the perfect break because:
- I love my friend
- I love London
At some point during day 2, I realised that I was laughing… that I was actually enjoying myself. This might sound completely trivial but it was massive for me.
I got a new tattoo
On our first day in London, my friend and I each got our second tattoo. We’d been thinking about getting tattoos together but couldn’t decide on any matching ones. So we each got a design that we loved individually. Here’s mine:
It was still healing, that’s why it looks a bit unclear. The line is part of a bigger quote:
“But she did look back, and I love her for that, because it was so human. So she was turned to a pillar of salt. So it goes. People aren’t supposed to look back. I’m certainly not going to do it anymore.”
― Kurt Vonnegut,
while the tattoo on my thigh didn’t hurt (it was just uncomfortable), this one did.. a lot.. But I’m glad I got it and I’m glad that it was Leti Mortimer who tattooed me, she’s amazing!
I got glasses
It’s not that my eyesight is that bad but I had noticed my eyes getting tired a lot faster. I spend most of my days behind a computer screen and I like to read when I get home. Lately, there wasn’t a lot of late-night reading because I would get massive head-aches.
So I decided to get my eyes tested and it turned out that I could actually use glasses. Once again, I’m not blind without them but they help. I can definitely tell the difference.
I feel a little better
I already mentioned the revelation I had back in London but I want to elaborate for a minute. Last year, I felt like shit most of the time. Things were bad and it’s only now that I realise how bad. Removing myself from a toxic environment had a huge impact on my mental state. It’s sounds so logical now but I can tell you, even though I was drowning, I was more comfortable with pretending everything was fine than admitting that I wasn’t okay.
Things are clearer now, the world is clearer. I look around and I see things. I put music on and I actually hear it. Before, everything was muted, now I’m more present. I’m a long way from being “well”, but I’m slowly getting better. I’m trying to find myself again. It’s sad how much of myself I’ve lost over the past couple of years. But I’m determined to be happy again.
I also read some books!
I read FOUR books this month! Okay, okay so maybe that doesn’t sound like a lot to you but it’s A LOT for me. Honestly? I’m even a little proud of myself!
- The Song of Achilles – Madeline Miller (Goodreads)
This was the first book I picked up in 2018. It was a reread and I still love it just as much as I did when I first read it. I’m so ready for Circe to come out and seeing all those ARC copies going around is KILLING me!! I want it nooooow!!
- How to stop time – Matt Haig (Goodreads)
Of course I bought books while I was in London, you know I don’t have any self-control when it comes to books… This was the first one I picked up and it was soooo good. I’m trying to write a review for it but it’s proving rather difficult. I’ll try to finish it this weekend.
- The Lonely Hearts Hotel- Heather O’Neill (Goodreads)
This was much darker than I thought it would be but it turned out to be a great story. Very slow though, so if you like your books fast-paced you might want to give this one a miss. Also a little warning, there’s a lot of sexual content and rape in here so just be aware.
- The Gracekeepers – Kirsty Logan (Goodreads)
What a gorgeous book! I absolutely loved the writing. It’s no surprise that so many people love this book. I only wish there could have been more of it. More story, more details, just.. more..
And that was my January. Crazy to think that a whole month has gone by since the start of 2018. How has your January been?
Even if it hasn’t been great, let’s keep moving forward. Because you know…